Homework time!

I've been seeing my psychiatrist for a while now, she has now witnessed a full cycle of my self-sabotage behaviour : lose weight, then eat myself silly, repeat.

Last week she gave me some homework. 

I have to write down what I know about; nutrition/healthy eating, exercise and eating habits (decision process, e.g. I must eat until I am full).

Then I need to decide which things have worked well for me in the past and list the things I should avoid doing again.

It's quite a lot to write down so I will split it into categories and do a post on each.

If you think this would help you, why not give it a go? If I have missed anything really important please let me know ;-)

Wedding Dresses & being fat

I tried on my first wedding dresses with my mum last Friday. 

It was wonderful - I was surprised at how flattering some of the dresses looked. My youngest sister was with us, happily taking photos so that we could discuss the various options afterwards.

Looking at photos I had the shock of my life - I look HUGE!

How is it possible that I went from feeling like a princess whilst in the dress, but actually looking like a walrus wrapped in a too small table cloth on the photos?

I want a word for this delirious occurrence. Is there one?
I know people suffering from anorexia often think they are much larger than they are, I seem to have the exact opposite!

Mirrors seem to lie to me, however photos seem to hold the cruel truth.

I will ask my therapist about this, I am a little worried she will just say I'm kidding myself and not looking in the mirror carefully enough.

I still haven't done the homework my therapist gave me last week...I'll tell you more about that in my next post.