Wednesday Weigh-in!

I've decided that every Wednesday I will 'weigh-in'. So here it goes:

Current Weight:
73.1 kg (or 161 pounds or 11.5 stone)

Current Body fat percentage:
38.2%

Current Stomach Circumference:
101cm

Weight miles stones: Less than 70kg, less than 65kg (has not occured since my best friends weeding in May 2012), 60kg (what I weighed when I was worried I had gained too much in Summer 2010), 57kg (according to Dukan Diet my 'ideal weight', which is what I was aiming for all those years ago!)

Ultimate Goal Weight:
55 kg (or 121 pounds or 8.6 stone)

Ultimate Goal Body fat percentage:
20%

Goal Stomach Circumference:
Not sure...I know less than 80cm is recommended for women - so just slimming down to healthy will be good!

Homework time!

I've been seeing my psychiatrist for a while now, she has now witnessed a full cycle of my self-sabotage behaviour : lose weight, then eat myself silly, repeat.

Last week she gave me some homework. 

I have to write down what I know about; nutrition/healthy eating, exercise and eating habits (decision process, e.g. I must eat until I am full).

Then I need to decide which things have worked well for me in the past and list the things I should avoid doing again.

It's quite a lot to write down so I will split it into categories and do a post on each.

If you think this would help you, why not give it a go? If I have missed anything really important please let me know ;-)

Wedding Dresses & being fat

I tried on my first wedding dresses with my mum last Friday. 

It was wonderful - I was surprised at how flattering some of the dresses looked. My youngest sister was with us, happily taking photos so that we could discuss the various options afterwards.

Looking at photos I had the shock of my life - I look HUGE!

How is it possible that I went from feeling like a princess whilst in the dress, but actually looking like a walrus wrapped in a too small table cloth on the photos?

I want a word for this delirious occurrence. Is there one?
I know people suffering from anorexia often think they are much larger than they are, I seem to have the exact opposite!

Mirrors seem to lie to me, however photos seem to hold the cruel truth.

I will ask my therapist about this, I am a little worried she will just say I'm kidding myself and not looking in the mirror carefully enough.

I still haven't done the homework my therapist gave me last week...I'll tell you more about that in my next post.

My first yo-yo

The first yo-yo was made popular in the 1920's but I'm pretty sure back then they would never have guessed how we would be using their fun toy name as an evil adjective in conjunction with weight loss and gain. Yo-yo dieting simple means, going on a diet, then putting weight back on, then going on a diet again, and - well putting the weight back on.

My weight gain started in 2010, it's the year I graduated, moved in with my then boyfriend (now fiancé) and it was also sadly the year my fiancé lost his mum to cancer. So all in all, I gained weight, and never really lost it again. At the time that really wasn't the largest (excuse the pun) problem.

However, it's how I dealt with the weight gain that has probably got me into this whole mess - ironically I can't quite remember how I did deal with it. I believe I started with a bit of jogging (sensible) and when that didn't work well I started my first strict diet (less sensible).

Over the years, I would informally agree with myself that I was on a diet and restrict foods which I wanted to eat, but didn't deem healthy, again seems relatively sensible to me. However I always seemed to 'cave' and ended up weighing even more than I had done before the diet.

My first 'formal' diet was the Dukan Diet which I started in 2012. I caved a couple of times before sticking to it for just under 3 months - I was the maid of honour at my best friend's wedding, and didn't want to hate looking at the wedding photos for the rest of my life. Oh the Dukan Diet worked well, until said wedding day arose, I ate lots of 'forbidden' foods and didn't stop eating for 2 months - which made me 5kg heavier than when I initially started Dukan.

Of course I knew I was eating too much, I even knew I was binging, I just couldn't stop myself...

Welcome to my blog

Hi there,

I'm Sophia and I'm a yo-yo dieter looking to finally break the cycle. I will be reporting my weight loss progress every Wednesday and post the results in my 'Weight loss Wednesday' blog posts. Alongside the current updates I will reflect on previous yo-yo dieting mishaps. I'm hoping to end my yo-yo dieting cycle. I wont be doing it on my own, I have a psychiatrist (I hate the way that sounds, either like I'm a complete nut-case or a pampered, middle class pouch - I'll leave you to draw your own conclusion...) who is helping me fight my desperate urge to loose weight fast, mainly because it resorts to a nasty binge a few months later.

If you've found this blog you may be experiencing similar problems or know someone that does - please feel free to comment or send me an email - but please be kind - I profess to not knowing what I'm doing - here's to giving it a go!